Dear future self,
As a young teen, I’ve always talked about how you want to become successful and rich in the future. Well, I hope that by the time you’re reading this, you’re already striving to achieve this very challenging goal. If you’re not, I’m going to tell you more about this desire of mine.
Every time I watch a youtube video or see photos of girls my age and their life, I always ask myself why they were granted an amazing life and be able to afford anything they wanted, whilst I have to get a job just to get new things. I’ve never really gotten over the fact that some people are more blessed that other people in terms of wealth.
I honestly hated that! So, now that I have a long term goal of becoming rich, I am becoming so obsessive.
I feel the need to know exactly what I’m going to pursue for my career to the point where it stresses me. As you know, I have anxiety and thinking about what I’m good at that I can make a living out of, adds to my level of stress.
Okay, it probably doesn’t make sense to you, but let me break it down.
Whenever I think about something that maybe I could make as a career, it discourages me because I lack of talent to do anything let alone make money out off it.
I have a list of careers I thought I could do like becoming an interior designer, graphic illustrator, author, veterinarian etc. but I suck at it! Therefore, I don’t see the point in trying to do it.
I know I’m only in year 10 and there’s a lot of room for improvement and learning, but if I don’t have the potential to do it in the first place, how would my future career turn out?
Honestly, I’m getting kind of stressed just talking about it. Hahaha.
To wrap this little rant all up, I don’t have any talents!!!
However, I seriously see myself as a creative person, therefore I am giving drawing a chance and so I am practicing my manga drawing skills so I can do something creative with my life.
Your past self